The angelic one.
Nineeen
All I want for is my lollipop.
The bitchy one.
Twenty
Baby you're my sugar-rush.
The bimbotic one.
Nineeen
Our story begins on Sept 3.
Sunday, March 02, 2008
yes,i changed.
for the better or worse.that's not for me to say.
how do i start?
maybe i just try by answering the question?
well, have it occurs to you how tired i may be after a day in school?
and knowing that we will ended up walking around in cwp for few hours doing nothing.
maybe i prefer to catch up on my sleep as my eyes are on the blink of closing
dont you realise how restless i am?
or instead of walking around,we will just sit down at some cafe.
and sad to say,it seems we run out of topic to talk about.do you realise we are just wasting time.maybe the words im using are too harsh...but ya.
and sorry im not the best person you can find to call. i maybe a good listener at times.but not when im having problems of my own and stuff...i dont know how to express it but ya...i can listen but dont ask me for comments.seriously,it's the problems of the adult and like i say again no point feeling bother or what over that.things will work out on it's own.and i dont see the reason to cry over it.you should know how i felt bout people crying.and i told you before,i will hang up most of the time.
and seriously,i just cant trust anyone enough.it's not your problem or any other people.the problems just lies with me.sometime i dint even tell cin,though i know her for so long.im not the type to trust.this problem lie with me as i re-emphasized.it's just me.and ya,i dont really like telling my stuff to people cause i tried before and it ended up with others knowing.or even telling me...that so and so say you blah blah blah and ask me not to tell you etc etc.been in too many type of similar situation that i dont dare.seriously.to confide in anyone.too many time many broke my trust.the best thing anyone can do when anything negative happen is dont ask.when i felt like telling.i will.if not .ya.just dont ask.and by the way,sometime there's things bout me you dont tell me also...am i right in saying that?when you told other people about your mm...thoughts...bout me?how do you think i feel when i know you talk to other people bout me.dont blame or suspect who tell me.cause i can feel and ya.
knowing that you tell people about me instead of me myself.how do you expect me to actually tell you?how sure can i be you will not tell others?
and YES i dont take initiative to ask people out.it's not only you.so ya.so do you realise we have lunch every other weeks.i dont see how having lunch can bond our friendship or something.sometime,it's just the heart thingy...there's people i never met for ages and yet know i can count on them whenever something happen or so.like you say,i rather spend time with people i met everyday,but if you realise,it's either on birthdays or sending off of someone...or rather just going home together cause we work at the same place.we dont need to specially meet up if you get my point.maybe,we went for lunch at cwp but it's those shun lu kinda things.so ya.
i wonder did i miss out anything.
perhaps,we just need some time to cool off.....
11:44 PM
for the better or worse.that's not for me to say.
how do i start?
maybe i just try by answering the question?
well, have it occurs to you how tired i may be after a day in school?
and knowing that we will ended up walking around in cwp for few hours doing nothing.
maybe i prefer to catch up on my sleep as my eyes are on the blink of closing
dont you realise how restless i am?
or instead of walking around,we will just sit down at some cafe.
and sad to say,it seems we run out of topic to talk about.do you realise we are just wasting time.maybe the words im using are too harsh...but ya.
and sorry im not the best person you can find to call. i maybe a good listener at times.but not when im having problems of my own and stuff...i dont know how to express it but ya...i can listen but dont ask me for comments.seriously,it's the problems of the adult and like i say again no point feeling bother or what over that.things will work out on it's own.and i dont see the reason to cry over it.you should know how i felt bout people crying.and i told you before,i will hang up most of the time.
and seriously,i just cant trust anyone enough.it's not your problem or any other people.the problems just lies with me.sometime i dint even tell cin,though i know her for so long.im not the type to trust.this problem lie with me as i re-emphasized.it's just me.and ya,i dont really like telling my stuff to people cause i tried before and it ended up with others knowing.or even telling me...that so and so say you blah blah blah and ask me not to tell you etc etc.been in too many type of similar situation that i dont dare.seriously.to confide in anyone.too many time many broke my trust.the best thing anyone can do when anything negative happen is dont ask.when i felt like telling.i will.if not .ya.just dont ask.and by the way,sometime there's things bout me you dont tell me also...am i right in saying that?when you told other people about your mm...thoughts...bout me?how do you think i feel when i know you talk to other people bout me.dont blame or suspect who tell me.cause i can feel and ya.
knowing that you tell people about me instead of me myself.how do you expect me to actually tell you?how sure can i be you will not tell others?
and YES i dont take initiative to ask people out.it's not only you.so ya.so do you realise we have lunch every other weeks.i dont see how having lunch can bond our friendship or something.sometime,it's just the heart thingy...there's people i never met for ages and yet know i can count on them whenever something happen or so.like you say,i rather spend time with people i met everyday,but if you realise,it's either on birthdays or sending off of someone...or rather just going home together cause we work at the same place.we dont need to specially meet up if you get my point.maybe,we went for lunch at cwp but it's those shun lu kinda things.so ya.
i wonder did i miss out anything.
perhaps,we just need some time to cool off.....
11:44 PM